Dramatic Monologue

I do not want it
But I need it
I so desperately need it

I feel as it puts those weights on my eyelids
Making them heavier
Heavier now
Heavier

But I fight
I resist
It is my nature
It is my only choice

It takes every ounce of me-
But I do it

It is the beast of the night
But it can’t consume me
I am stronger than it
But Oh! How I wish I were weaker

It has been twenty nine hours now
Since I have had even a moment with you

I hear it calling out my name
It started as only a whisper
But there is a pounding in my head now
A pulsating pain running through my veins
A cold shiver down my spine
I can hear it in my ear
Now- screaming my name

See what I used to be like
Smiling
Laughing
Joking

Not anymore
These feelings have been replaced
Cranky
Angry
I am going to snap at any moment

I hear them talking about it
She got six
He seven
And that one ba$%@&* nine

NINE! HE GOT NINE!
And I- none
I can no longer think
It has finally taken over

I am going to have to give in
To break down
To lie down
To let it consume me

Here I lie
Prostrate on the bed
My eyes wide shut

Sleep is a fickle monster.